For as long as I can remember I’ve been planner. I have ideas of what I want to do, what I want to make and where I want to go. I like planning it. But, more often than not, I end up not doing the fantastic things I’ve planned.
Terrarium making. Painting with watercolour. Life drawing class. Language lessons. Going to a meet up. Cooking more. Making pottery. An Instagram feed dedicated to one thing. Archery. Eat more vegetables. Take up photography. Go hiking somewhere exciting.
It’s as if I have an invisible rope tied around my angles, holding me back – not allowing me to move forward and actually do the things I think of doing.
This invisible rope I know is all in the mind. It’s a blockage somewhere which is not letting my life doing emerge. Truth be told I don’t know how I can unblock it. I don’t know how to reach down to untie the rope. But I’m going to find out.
First, I need to do some more life thinking. Oh the irony. Yet I feel this is an important step. To get to the life doing part, I have to do some life mapping – and that requires some thinking! I’ve never been one to have a 5-year plan, not in work, not in life. As my mid-thirties are looming, I’m starting to think (there’s that bloody word again) that a roadmap of what I want to achieve and do over then next 5 years isn’t such a terrible idea.
When I’ve completed my life mapping session, and set out some near and far goals, it will be time to get on to life doing. The key will be to not try to do all at once. This is one of my problems. I end up with analysis paralysis because I have so many things I want to do, that I can’t decide which to do first, and end up doing nothing…
OK, I have my sharpies and paper. Wish me luck!